A breakdown of the mind… Chapter 2: My 800 pound gorilla

Have you ever woken up with absolutely nothing in your head aside from fog, or dark grey cloud? It’s an odd thing to describe, but on that Saturday morning, the morning after that Friday spent working from home and blubbering in front of the painter, i woke up empty. I felt hollow. I thought of … Continue reading A breakdown of the mind… Chapter 2: My 800 pound gorilla

A Breakdown of the mind… or, rather, my own personal mental breakdown…

I’m Selina, I’m 28 years old, and about a month ago I had a mental breakdown... Oh yeah. Like full-force crazy-scale one day (really, I was working from home crying in front of my laptop, blubbering and trying to tell the painter - who is a village local, that I often see when I walk … Continue reading A Breakdown of the mind… or, rather, my own personal mental breakdown…

‘I’d never marry you. I mean, you look great, but I’d never marry you…’

It’s been a while... but with moving to the country (for I am now only a mindlessly rambling Londoner solely three to five days a week), concentrating on a new, more structured fitness regime, curbing the social media presence (coming off of it, aside from post promotion - hey, y’all that clicked from Insta!) and … Continue reading ‘I’d never marry you. I mean, you look great, but I’d never marry you…’

The Joys of Feeling Ugly…

More often than not, I tend to feel ugly. Is this a standard feeling in girls? Women? People nowadays, or is it just me? I’ve never been the prettiest and for the vast majority of my life I’ve been the bigger girl. The one overlooked and joked about. I even joked about it too – … Continue reading The Joys of Feeling Ugly…

When Your Stomach is Not Yet on Flat, Flat…

I think I have plateaued. Well I’ve definitely become rather lax in my diet choices and come to think of it, my exercise choices too. Wait for it… I’ve come quite far in the last two years – yes, my not so humble, humble brag of the week right there – but I think for … Continue reading When Your Stomach is Not Yet on Flat, Flat…

Baby Got Back… But Should Specific Body Features, Be A Fashion Statement?

‘I like big butts and I cannot lie’, I know, that’s song is in your head now, isn’t it?! #sorrynotsorry. I do like big butts. Not in the way that the song dictates, but due to the fact that society is fast embracing a woman with curves. Specifically, a woman with a bum. A societal … Continue reading Baby Got Back… But Should Specific Body Features, Be A Fashion Statement?

The Circle: An Almost Crude Explanation of Our Societal Future

Last Saturday night was one I spent very much at home on the sofa. Having had a busy few weeks and an... eventful Friday night out with my sister and cousin, Saturday night was for staying in. Gladly so too. I took this rare opportunity not to catch up on the first episode of this … Continue reading The Circle: An Almost Crude Explanation of Our Societal Future

Enlightened… A Change in My Date Game…

‘We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.’ – Buddha. I believe that the universe sends us signals, if of course we are entirely open to them, or at least willing to take notice of the pattern of events … Continue reading Enlightened… A Change in My Date Game…

“I Wanna Be Like Most Girls…”

I’ve been rather angry lately. Maverick brought this up a few weeks ago actually, which made my temper even worse, but I think I know the underlying reason why… I want to be pretty. I want to be found attractive. I want to possess all the superficial qualities that the world tells me that I … Continue reading “I Wanna Be Like Most Girls…”

Thank You Mr Uber Driver, For Commenting On The Size Of My Body – And Not In A Good Way… 

I went out Friday night. Partying the night away, my friends and I were out until the wee small hours of the morning, which is pretty standard for us on a night out. Cut to home-time, and its time to order an Uber (after a trip to McDonald's - obviously). I catch my Uber, but … Continue reading Thank You Mr Uber Driver, For Commenting On The Size Of My Body – And Not In A Good Way…